2011 Resolution

Is 2 o'clock in the morning and also the first day of 2011. Well another end of an awesome year. But is another beginning of a new one. This year, challenges will come and growth will occur.

And like everyone does it, every year we set our new year's resolution. So now i'm gonna list out my new year's resolution.

1] Busy on weekdays and free on weekends

Meaning i want to focus on college works on weekdays. And focus on youth and fun on weekends

2] Healthy Living

Meaning less unhealthy food. Dance. Work out. Enough sleep. Energetic

3] No More Disrespect

Meaning i shall not hate anyone. And show respect to people even if they don't respect.

4] Control Money Uses

Plan the things i need/want. And limit down the amount of money used for me living expenses

5] Look And Be My Age

Look decent and be mature

So far thats all i could think of. If i have anymore i would like to add on. I would post it some other time =) But right now is a new year, and i hope to continue to learn and grow to be better.

Almost coming to an end

Well. Fun has almost come to and end =( Only 2 more days left and i'm heading back to K.L

I'm definitely gonna miss it here. Oh well, study calls. HaHaHa.

So far i had done everything i need to do here and i am quite satisfied.

• Night time hang outs
• Met up with my church friends
• Met up with SGM friends
• BBQ with friends
• Drinking and Singing with friends
• Watch fireworks at Gaya Street
• Playing games in cyber cafe with friends
• Basketball at Lido ( Though is only for a while )
• Narnia with my close friends
• Dancing and helping out with a dance
• Shopping with family and friends
• Hang out at gaya street for 4 days in a row
• Gaining back my sleep time

So yea. I had an awesome time here =) And i cant wait for my next trip back here.

And now is time for semester 2. Bring it on. Is another challenge.

But i'm glad i get to see my classmates and cant wait to learn new stuff.

To all my K.K peeps. I'l see yea when i come back during Chinese new years

My Epic Dream

Okay. This is what went down this morning. I came home late and i was a little tipsy from drinking with my friends. I got back and I directly sleep. Then i had a dream. And now i'm gonna tell you about my dream. Hahaha.

All right. Now in my dream i was a HIGH RANKED S.W.A.T TEAM COMMANDER.

Hahaha. Epic right ?

And basically people in town was infected by a disease which turned them into ZOMBIES. Sounds like resident evil huh ? HaHaHa.

Then me and my S.W.A.T team was suppose to head down into the town from a helicopter and look for survivors. Cool right ? Woots ! I'm imagining. Me in a S.W.A.T team. HaHaHa.

But all of a sudden, my team abandoned me in the town and went their own ways.Jeng Jeng !

And there i was alone with a millions of zombies trying to take me down. The came from every direction. From top of buildings, jump over the fence, chasing from here to there. And I was not willing to die. Hahaha.

Only survivor ! =D

Now here is the epic part and the climax. HaHaHa. I only had one weapon with me. And this weapon is the only thing that helps me to kill the zombies that was around me and chasing me trying to eat me up. And the picture below was my weapon :

So there i was walking around with nothing but a TENNIS RACKET and bashing zombie's head with it. HaHaHa. Wanna know if survived ? Well sadly i woke up half way bashing zombie's heads. XD Epic Dream Ever !!

Hey guys. So far i have been talking about nice picture that i found. And is been a while that i haven blog about what's been going on in my life and what are the things going through my head. Well, I guess i cant tell you guys exactly whats going through my head. But at least i can give you guys the 411 on my life now.

1] As you all know i'm back in K.K. And i'm enjoying every moment of it. I love the feeling of sleeping on my own bed and having parents around. And we joke more than we use to. So i'm really happy about it. Being able to meet up with my friends and hang out with closest friends is awesome. ( You know who you are ) =]

2] I going for second semester next year. Which is just 20 days away. Which i am pretty nervous about because for my first semester it was kinda tough for me but at the same time it was fun. I guess what i'm afraid of is the fact is gonna tougher. And i'm gonna leave K.K again. Still not really use to the life there. But i guess it takes time. =]

3] Back in K.L i encounter some issues with friends. Now i'm not gonna talk about that cause it is way to personal. But right now, i'm just glad everything is over. And i no longer have enemies. Well, at least i think i don. =[

4] If you guys wanna know about my love life. Well, most of you guys know i'm single. And to be honest, i'm not in a rush to look for a girlfriend. Matter in fact i'm not even searching. I guess there are certain feelings that i'm still haven't to let go. Right now i'm just really glad i have friends around. Sometimes is better to focus on friends first. Relationships can always wait. Though there is a pain and regret. But is a pain and regret that i have to live with.

God bless You All

New Picture New Meaning

New picture and a new meaning. Here's another meaningful picture which i found from a web site. To keep a balance in life requires us to keep moving on. I'm sure many of us go through hard obstacles in life. And i'm pretty sure everyone falls and go through heart breaks.

And you know what, is okay to feel down once in a while. Everyone goes through challenges in life. Is a journey that we all go through. No one ever says is gonna be easy growing up.

The older we get, the tougher it gets. Tell me if i'm wrong.

My solution to all this. Is to give everything to God. When i want peace and wisdom. I allow God to take over everything. God would not give us challenges that we can not go through/handle. Through prayer. Prayer connects us with God. Prayer is a way for us to listen to God. I hope the picture below would inspire you guys :

God bless you all =)

Reminder Pictures

Hey guys. Recently i signed up for this blogging site called "Tumblr"

Is pretty cool and i'm amazed by the pictures uploaded by the people i'm following.

And the one blog i like the most is called " Walk By Faith "

This person's tumblr is pretty awesome cause he/she uploads nicely designed/edited pictures that shows how great God is =)

And i'm really impress by how it portrays God's love through words and background pictures.

Here are some samples for you guys:

Nice right ? Basically these pictures does help us to remind us the greatness of God

and he's unlimited love for us. I would reblog these pictures to my friend and hopefully they would see it and be reminded of God's love =D

GOD BLESS YOU ALL

Finals is over !!

Yahoo.com !! Finals is over. And is the end of my first semester !

Hahaha. Is been a long while since i update my blog. Cause i have been really busy with college stuff. But is all over now. I have one month of semester break. And i will try try and update my blog as much as i can within this month =D

This is the most recent picture of me cam-whoring while i prepare for finals

Anyways..i will update you guys on my upcoming post =D

do read and comment.. Hahaha..

God bless =D

My recent 2 weeks

Last week

Is been really hectic these past few weeks. But over all things are settling down now.

Last week wasn't a good week. Lets just say I'm having some indescribable problems.

I was suppose to perform for ICSJ Halloween Night with Messed up feelings.

I was so messed up last week that I cant even do things right.

I guess I'm a type of guy that is easily distracted by the emotional things that had been going on.

Anyways, Halloween was okay for me.

The thing is i didn't get to enjoy Halloween with my friends.

And i was busy preparing for my performance.

I was so nervous and in my mind was all the frustration stuff.

But in the end i did enjoy performing. That was the cheering up point for the whole horrible week.

I wanna thank all my friends for being there and thank the crowd for cheering.

I really appreciate it you guys.

Pictures on that night :

Performing on stage.

Me and Locking Chi

This week

This week is full pack with assignments. I had like 3 assignments due this week.

And guess what. As usual, i didn't get to sleep much just to rush my assignments.

There was one night where i didn't even sleep at all.

It was horrible. But one thing good about this week is.

All of my emotional problems are finally settling down. I feel peaceful.

And i really thank God for that. But God helped me realized somethings about myself.

There are certain areas about me that I should change.

And i'm sure of my friends feel that i should change too.

I guess what I need is prayer and to just seek God.

All i want is to be a good sample to my friends around me. I sick and tired of being angry and upset all the time.

It hurts a lot knowing that i feel this way over small situations.

I had asked for forgiveness. And i had try to make things better.

I guess what i need to do now is to give it more time.

I will continue praying. And i will continue believing in God.

Emotional update

Hey guys =) Here is my update. It has been a crazy. But through this week i realized a lot things which took me quite a while to really realize it.

1) I do have great friends here

I just come to realize this because i feel that i haven been appreciating all of my friends here and back at my hometown. Because of my anger and quickness to judge people. Caused me to think other wise of my friends. And what i did was i posted my apologies to my friends in FaceBook to show that how much i appreciate them and how much am I sorry for the things i have done in the past.

2) Realized why God put me here

To be honest i'm still not really used to the life here in KL. But is getting better now. And through my life here. I realized that my purpose here is to actual to have an opportunity to serve God by bringing people to come and know Him. I have been sharing my testimony to people and i have friends that actually wonder why am I so into God. And because this and through the face to face conversation. I actually brought one of my friend to church and She accepted Jesus Christ. Though is not an easy task. But i believe that God his ways. And all i need is to trust in Him.

3) Have no time for myself.

My life here is getting more and more busy and more and more complicated. At the same time I don really have time to contact my friends back at KK. And they actually felt that i'm forgetting about them. Well to be honest, I'm so caught up by my life here that i actually put my old friends to a side. I do miss you guys. But at the same time I have a lot going on here. Test and assignments is one thing. But i do have friends which i need to look after and help out. Though things might not seem much. But it is complicated. Will let you guys know ones I get back. And i'm sorry that i lost contact.

I know i did screw things up. But i am trying to fix things. I guess what i'm lacking is.

I need to care for others more than i care for myself.

I know somehow will ask why am i so emotional all of a sudden.

Lets just say I learned a lot. Through the hard way.

And God is the one who guide me through it and help me to realized my purpose here.

Thats all for now.

God bless.

I miss you both.

They are at the east. And I'm at the west.

Though we are far apart. But they remain in my heart.

I miss them. Till is tempting to cry.

Though they scold me.

Though they nag me.

Though they control me.

Though they hit me.

Though they are paranoid at times.

Be surprise. I actually miss all of the above.

Cause they remind me of the things i did wrong.

And when i'm afraid of them. I obey.

I miss seeing my mom watching Astro and cooks for the family.

I miss having my dad in my room and does his work next to me while i play games online.

Now I'm living in a place where I actually have to go through things myself.

Truth be told. I am afraid. I'm not as strong as I look.

But one thing is for sure God is always there.

And I know i shall not fall.

I miss you mom and dad. And thank you.

From :

Introducing The Double Emo

Ladies and Gentlemen ! Introducing the new generation of emotional peeps. Be advised. The following lifes of these two nonsense doubles will somehow make you go

(=.=) or (+.+) or (T.T) or (O.O) or (O.o)

Introduction The Female EmoOoooo

Name : Mar lynn Tim

From : West Malaysia

Age : Shall not be mentioned. =D

Favorite line : " IS SO FLUFFY ! I"M GONNA DIE", "GO JUMP OFF A BUILDING LA", "HAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAH", " LOLOLOL".

Emo name : Emo Ninja ! Wajah !

Introducing The Male EmoOoooo

Name : Ng Christopher

From : East Malaysia

Age : 19 =D

Favorite line : "JUST DIE ALREADY", "OKAY MAH ?", "OH SHIT !", "UGH !"

Emo name : Spikey Emo ! Watah !

This is what you get if you combine east and west Malaysia peeps together. We create fun and laughter. Random and lame. Sad and emo. Gossip and gossip. =D Though we only know each other for a short term of time. But somehow i felt like i known her longer than that. Though we have our differences and issues. But we are able to find joy and laughter through each other. And not forgetting to mention WE LOVE GOD. Sharing is Caring. Caring is Loving. =D I have found a friend that i can really connect to. I don care what other people say and think. All i know is that i'm thankful.

A picture i edited =D

My perception of SS

There are many people that dislike it when guys take pictures of themselves. But i don understand what is wrong with that ? Is it wrong for guys to have (SS pictures) ? Well for me maybe because is our culture. Maybe some people don like it when they see either guys or girls take picture of themselves. And worse of all. They give their rude comments about the picture.

Comments:

"is fugly"

"so SS"

"Don know how to SS then better don"

"Seen yourself in the mirror lately ?"

I mean is way too rude for them to actually say those things. But at the same time, the people in the picture cant say much about the comments. Mainly because they are afraid that it might spoil their reputation. And maybe rumors might go on in school or college.

But for me i wouldn't care much about it. Cause if i don want people to say bad things about my picture. Then i would just take nicer pictures. Maybe some of you guys are saying i'm not photogenic and i don know how to take nicer pictures. Well, my perception about this is don care about what other people say. Cause what matters the most is what you think of it. But i'm not saying everyone should take bad pictures of themselves all the time. What i'm trying to say is have more confident in yourself and just smile. Is that simple. =) I like to take picture of myself not because I really like the way

i look. Is for the fun of it and show that God made me this way.

Some pictures of me

A shot taken by a friend of mine =)

Angle shot =D

Trying to look emo =D

Playing with my fingers =D

My new hair style =D

Gossip Girl ! yes you are ! =D

This is a shout out to the girl that calls me dude all the time ! =D

Me B.F.F material guy/girl sorta-like-ish friend. Hahaha. In yo face mar lynn !

HAHAHAHAH !!!! LOLOLOLOLOL !!!! inspired by mar lynn =)

Anyways, through out my college life here. There's been a lot drama going on.

And for those who know me well enough. ME NO LIKE DRAMA. (cina slang) =D

All of sudden an unexpected girl comes towards and tells me how pissed she is.

And then it started from there. She's pissed. I was pissed. We both pissed.

After talking to her and get to know her a little bit more. We end up gossiping =D

YES ! THATS RIGHT ! WE ( let repeat ones more ) WE GOSSIP !

We talk junk. We talk crap. We talk loads of crap. Hahaha. And we end up laughing like crazy.

"Like put your hands in the air !

And laugh it like we just don care !"

Hahahaha

But i realize she's a type of person which i can really talk to and she is willing to listen.

And i'm really thankful and appreciate to have a friend like MAR LYNN in my life =)

Anyways. Imagine ! we only known each other for 2 months. And we're already like.

Chris : eh. you'l never guess what happened last night.

Marlynn : Wat ? wat ? wat ?! O.O tell me

Chris : ( tells story )

Marlynn : OMG ! wth ! wtf ! seriously wei ?

Chris : ya la ! Ugh ! can you imagine the position i'm in ?

Marlynn : Chillax dude. Don pekchek ( "means stress or angry" i think la )

Chris : silents*

Marlynn : Don emo la~ come lets go find good food =D

Chris : Where to eat ?

Marlynn : Asia cafe ?

Chris : Ban mee again ?

Marlynn : OMG ! i wan ban mee ! screams*

Chris : Despo for ban mee la u !

Marlynn : looks at chris with this face* =.=

Chris : Don give me that face.

Marlynn : Uhhuh !

Chris : Uhhuh Uhhuh ! thats all u can say ah ?

Marlynn : Uhhuh !

Chris : Beh tahan ! =.=

Marlynn : Hahahahaha. fun ler annoying you !

Chris : Ish ! best friend konon !

Marlynn : Haha ! best fren sure have annoy to make fun de mar.

Chris : Hahahahaha ! true also la

Both : MUAHAHAHAHAHA !

Thats how our conversation goes. =D but you guys will never know the most of it.

Anyways. Marlynn your awesome ! Thank you for everything.

Here's a BIG GINORMOUS HUGS TO MARLYNN !

Hugsuntillyouactuallydie ! =D just kidding.

God bless you !

Fun and A little Disaster

2 days ago we had a freshie night at ICSJ.Is for freshmen's of INTI. But somehow i feel like there were more seniors than freshmens.

Sad Right ?Anyways, it was a BBQ. And there was nothing much to eat.The fun comes in when they started with the games and performances.And here is the fun part and sad part for me.There was one guy performing hip hop dance.And he was really good. But after he performed.The whole thing turned into a battle. Well not really a battle. More like a small dance competition.So we danced. And my friend bryan limus was the first to perform.I was second to perform and 2 others performed after me.Here's the thing. I don like to dance battle. Because I dance just for the fun of it.I admit I LOVE TO DANCE. But i would not want to battle. The reason i went out because my friends and the crowd wanted me to go out and dance. So i did.And that night the crowd would decide who is the winner judging by how loud they cheer for the dancer.And guess what. I WON. And the prize is i got a NIKE T-SHIRT.But somehow I feel bad for the performer early on. It was suppose to be his floor. Not mine.One thing about dance battle. Somehow people gets the wrong idea and maybe say things which offends people.Even though it feels good to dance. But is wrong to dance just to defeat people.

But enough about that. After the dance thing. My friends and I continued to party on.Well, nothing much actually. We just took a lot pictures. And played basketball after that.It was really fun. My cousin john was there too. He crashed into the party.HAHA.The basketball match was a lot of fun. But our team lost. Oh well. haha.Here are some pictures of the night =)

Singing performance by ruis and may =)

Group picture =)

Group picture with a little kick =)

Dorm friends =)

Sabahan freeze !

Feelings Revealed

Today was a horrible day for me.

I ignored my friends all the way.

Well I didn't ignore all of them. Some of them.

And I feel really bad for doing that.

And I'm sorry you guys.

Somehow all my frustration from every situation came into me at ones.

And it was a horrible feeling.

Till now I still feel bad.

And I don know how am I gonna be like tomorrow.

I hope I'l be fine.

I'm not as strong as i thought i was.

And is really depressing to know.

Many times i feel like falling.

Tears seriously going to burst out.

I feel like crying already just by typing this post.

I don wanna cry. Cause some how I feel like is lame for me to cry about all this.

I never thought I would be in a situation like this.

I don wanna be in a situation like this.

But heck what am I saying anyways.

I still have to face facts I have to go through all these.

But why is it so hard.

Why cant i stand up ?

Why i cant i have the strength to get back up ?

I pray. I believed.

But what is God trying to do ?

What does He want from me ?

Why cant I feel your presents Lord ?

I miss my parents so much.

I wanna cry just by thinking about it.

I never thought i would miss home so much.

The only place where I feel like home is at my relatives place.

Which I don wanna go too often.

Because I don wanna them to use extra money, food and electricity.

I wanna hug my mom.

I want my dad to be around.

Even if it means just watching him work all day long.

Somehow friends is an issues for me here.

I don know who to trust anymore.

Though i can talk and eat with them.

But somehow there is a feeling of discomfort.

Mainly because i received a lot of disappointment from them.

But i'm not going to mention who and why.

For those who i can actually talk to somehow is hard to talk with them as well.

Cause they have their own stuff to do.

And distance and time is also an issue.

I cant go on. I don feel like it.

Some how I'm still walking because God wouldn't let me stop.

I don know what to think.

I don know what to do.

I know is very lame of me to be like this.

But i cant help it.

Feeling update

IS STILL A LITTLE FRUSTRATED !

Though things may seem okay with me.

But there is a lot more hidden inside of me.

It is kinda hard to tell some one how you exactly feel.

Keeping it inside is not a very good feeling.

But somehow keeping it in is the safest thing to do.

The things we do and the things we say.

May and may not cause a big effect to people around us.

Life here is somehow complicated.

And i understand the fact many people have their own problems.

But my life here is someone else problem effects me.

And i mean seriously effect me.

Though i wanna be strong.

But i'm not strong enough.

Maybe I don seek God enough now.

And i get distracted easily.

But distraction shouldn't drag me away from Him.

Though i pray.

But it feels like I'm borrowing God.

Instead of following God.

And it is a horrible feeling.

HELP !

For Your Info

Is official. Now i don know who to trust anymore.

Yes. Their are a few friends that i can actually connect to and talk about anything with them.

( I'm sure you know who you are)

But their are a few people that I am not willing to listen to.

And i have my reasons.

I never expected anyone to like me or respect me.

Cause honestly I'm not really showing much respect either.

I don't hate. Is just sometimes I feel uncomfortable.

But the worse part is. Having a close friend which is a girl would actual start people from

saying things that are untrue and starts to be sarcastic about it.

I'm not angry. I'm just annoyed.

Please. I don bother about your personal life and relationship.

And it gives you not right to simply say things and make it annoying.

Don go around thinking that I'm talking about you.

This is a shout out to quite a few number of people.

New Hair Style and Biography

Guess I Was Wrong

This past few weeks has been awful. Things were okay at first.

But now reality comes in. Many things happened at onces, but a lot people didn't notice.

And i choose to keep it for myself.

1] Good friends are really hard to find here.

Sure there are some. But somehow is hard to talk to them. With all the classes and assignments and the distances. And adding in those that have been giving burden and trouble. Is really adding into the frustration.

2] I haven't been praying lately. I trust in God.

But i don know why i don seek for Him. Meaning to say i'm having problems in my spiritual life. I guess i'm allowing my surroundings affect me.

3] I miss my parents. I miss my hometown. I miss my friends back there.

I get excited when ever my mom calls to have a conversation with me. And when my dad calls for a short while to check up on me. I never thought being away from my family is that hard.

I see my friends heading back to their hometown and back to their families. I get upset thinking about how much i wish i can go back to my family.

4] All of the above is causing me to not being able to concentrate on my assignments. Imagine sitting in front of the lap top and all you think about is the things your going through here and now.

I wish i have someone to talk to. Sitting in my room alone is

just awful and depressing.

I need God. But i'm having trouble seeking Him.

Shout Out Back Hometown

This short video is done by me.

Is a shout out to all of my friends back at K.K =)

Hope you guys like it. And ignore the beat box part.

Is just to add in the lame-ness. haha

ENJOY and GOD BLESS

Him.

Though I am weak.

But my God is strong.

Though I'm not perfect

But my God has always been perfect.

Though i'm standing low.

But my God is standing high.

Though I don know how to love.

But my God does.

Though I feel like giving up.

But my God wont.

Though I'm running out of strength.

But my God is always strong.

Thats why we need God in our life.

I need Him right now.