Feeling update

IS STILL A LITTLE FRUSTRATED !

Though things may seem okay with me.

But there is a lot more hidden inside of me.

It is kinda hard to tell some one how you exactly feel.

Keeping it inside is not a very good feeling.

But somehow keeping it in is the safest thing to do.

The things we do and the things we say.

May and may not cause a big effect to people around us.

Life here is somehow complicated.

And i understand the fact many people have their own problems.

But my life here is someone else problem effects me.

And i mean seriously effect me.

Though i wanna be strong.

But i'm not strong enough.

Maybe I don seek God enough now.

And i get distracted easily.

But distraction shouldn't drag me away from Him.

Though i pray.

But it feels like I'm borrowing God.

Instead of following God.

And it is a horrible feeling.

HELP !