Guess I Was Wrong

This past few weeks has been awful. Things were okay at first.

But now reality comes in. Many things happened at onces, but a lot people didn't notice.

And i choose to keep it for myself.

1] Good friends are really hard to find here.

Sure there are some. But somehow is hard to talk to them. With all the classes and assignments and the distances. And adding in those that have been giving burden and trouble. Is really adding into the frustration.

2] I haven't been praying lately. I trust in God.

But i don know why i don seek for Him. Meaning to say i'm having problems in my spiritual life. I guess i'm allowing my surroundings affect me.

3] I miss my parents. I miss my hometown. I miss my friends back there.

I get excited when ever my mom calls to have a conversation with me. And when my dad calls for a short while to check up on me. I never thought being away from my family is that hard.

I see my friends heading back to their hometown and back to their families. I get upset thinking about how much i wish i can go back to my family.

4] All of the above is causing me to not being able to concentrate on my assignments. Imagine sitting in front of the lap top and all you think about is the things your going through here and now.

I wish i have someone to talk to. Sitting in my room alone is

just awful and depressing.

I need God. But i'm having trouble seeking Him.